Love Yourself – pt. 3

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Pairing: Kurtbastian

Summary: Fix it fic for 6×01 & 6×02. Kurt is struggeling after his break up and he doesn’t know how to deal with any of it anymore. Until he meets Sebastian again.

Words: 3.846

A/N: The new text editor messed up a lot of my formatting, who knows what’s going on there. I hope it’s still comfortable for you to read long texts like this. Let me know if there’s anything I can change to make it easier.

Part 1 – Part 2

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Part 3

‘I should’ve gave you flowers and held your hand.
Should’ve gave you all my hours when I had the chance. Take you to
every party cause all you wanted to do was dance. Now my baby is dancing-’

Suddenly
Kurt heard someone coughing lowly and stopped singing abruptly. No one
besides his dad had another set of keys and he was unquestionably in
Lima. With a start Kurt lifted his head from the couch to have a look.
For a second he got dizzy and everything swam before his eyes. But then
his vision cleared and he saw the person standing in the doorway.
Sebastian.

‘What are you doing here? How did you even get in?’
Kurt was more than glad that he didn’t slur the words. He hadn’t drunk
that much, but sometimes his body’s reaction to alcohol was
unpredictable. The night he got knocked out by a single cocktail was
still clear in his mind. Well, not that clear.

He fumbled for the remote of the stereo and turned it off.

‘You
sent me a text that sounded a lot like an apology. But I’m not really
sure because there were a lot of random letters in between. So I decided
to check up on you.’

Message? I sent a messa- Oh, that message.

He let his head fall back onto the sofa and stared at the ceiling.

‘Could’ve called.’

‘I did. But it went to voicemail, and you wrote ‘goodbye’, so I thought…’

‘You
thought I’d do something dumb.’ Kurt sniffed. Sebastian didn’t reply,
he only shrugged and there was something so helpless about that little
shrug that it painfully knocked the breath out of Kurt like a blow to
his stomach. Sebastian had been worried enough by a text message to come
looking for him.

‘For your information, I did do something
stupid. It was so stupid of me to treat you like that. You hit a sore
spot, but that doesn’t make it okay. I wrote ‘goodbye’ because I… I was
convinced you wouldn’t want to be friends with me anymore anyway. Not
after what I said to you.’

‘You were right back then. Sometimes I don’t feel like I changed at all.’

‘That’s
nonsense, Sebastian. If you hadn’t changed, we would never have become
anything even close to friends in the first place. Just in case you
didn’t know, when we first met I sort of couldn’t stand you.’ Kurt
smiled playfully at him. Sebastian returned the smile wryly, but didn’t
respond. There was no need to argue about something that was undeniably a
true fact.

‘So, why didn’t you answer the phone?’

‘I lost it.’

‘You lost your phone? In here?’

‘I was… gesturing. To the music, you know. And suddenly it wasn’t in my hand anymore. I know, it’s stupid.’

‘That doesn’t mean you’re stupid, that just means you’re drunk.’

‘Oh, I am. Stupid, I mean. Well, tipsy as well. Anyway. I went back to Lima. And I almost stayed.’

‘Indeed,
that is stupid. As you know, since I have told you before.’ Sebastian
smirked at Kurt’s miserable expression. He didn’t think Kurt deserved to
be hurt like that, but at least Kurt seemed to have learned his lesson
now. And how Sebastian loved to be right.

‘What made you come back?’

‘I
saw him. Blaine. And all my feelings just rushed back in. And I was
this close to telling him everything, that I want him back, that I made a
mistake.’

‘And then?’

‘He was faster. Told me he has a new boyfriend.’ Sebastian made a grimace.

‘Ouch.’

‘Oh, that’s not the end of the story. It gets better.’

‘You saw him and his new boyfriend is gorgeous and practically perfect?’ Kurt narrowed his eyes at Sebastian.

Is that a real question? Or one of his escapades?

‘No. Well, he isn’t ugly, but that’s just not the point. I know him. You know him.’

‘Stop the suspense, just tell me.’

‘Dave Karofsky. Blaine Anderson is dating David Karofsky.’

‘No way, bear cub?’ Kurt groaned.

‘Don’t
say that. You know what Dave calls him? Boo-Boo. I thought I’ll be sick
when I heard that.’ Sebastian started laughing. A husky, low laugh that
spoke loud and clear of his disbelief. To his complete surprise, a
shiver ran down Kurt’s spine at the sound.

Stupid alcohol, messing with my head.

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