badacts:

FUCK I HADN’T BUT NOW I AM AND I’M SAD

YOUR CUTESY USE OF MY NICKNAME (badcats) WILL NOT SEE YOU FORGIVEN THIS DAY

(andrew waking up and going to practice and talking to neil on the phone and going to lunch with the rebels and then his phone goes off and he doesn’t recognise the number-)

(neil dying when he’s out of andrew’s reach and out of his sight, where andrew could do nothing except get the call to say it’s already too late)

(andrew waking up the next morning and being okay until he remembers)

(except he’s lying in bed and his coach calls to ask where the hell he is and he doesn’t have words (or purpose) so he gets out of bed and goes without saying anything)

(and then he’s halfway there when neil calls him worrying because rebels management called him wondering where andrew was, and andrew has to wonder whether he’s gone crazy) (crazier) (but he goes to practice, and then skips lunch with the rebels, and then his phone goes off and he doesn’t recognise the number-)

(and then he’s waking up again and he’s calling neil and he’s alright, he’s fine, even though andrew’s having a truly spectacular mental break and neil promises he’s getting on a plane and coming home, and andrew is almost okay – until the afternoon when andrew’s phone goes off and he doesn’t recognise the number-)

(and then he’s waking up again.)

(three times, three different ways to die. either andrew’s losing it or something is fucking going on here, but either way, somehow, he’s going to find out a way to stop it)